Dear Pennsylvania,

I am writing to beg for your forgiveness.  I am sorry for not appreciating what we had together for so many years.  I am sorry that I wanted to leave you because I thought there were more exciting places out there to live.  (Well, I actually left you because God called us elsewhere for a season, but I wanted to leave you before then).  Oh, there are exciting places out there…and they are beautiful, lovely, fun to spend time with.  But there is no place I’d rather LIVE than with you.  And to be honest, it’s not really about you.  It’s about the people within your borders–MY people.  It’s also about the lifetime of memories I have with(in) you.  It’s also because you are breathtakingly beautiful. Your luscious, rolling green hills in the springtime, your brilliantly hued trees of the fall, and yes, even to some extent, the magical white of your winter (although, I’d gladly take one glimpse of this per year than 5 months of it, but I’ll try my best not to complain).  Yes, your seasons.  I’ve missed your seasons the past 2 years that I’ve been away and I can’t wait to get back to experience them with you again.  I had taken you for granted for so many years because you are all I’d ever known.

I took you for granted so much that I can’t find any good pics of you in my photo albums…

But you need to know that you share part of my heart with someplace else now.  Nicaragua.  Some small roots had begun to grow there thanks to the beautiful people I met and fell in love with and the unique experiences I had. The saying is so very true.  Home is most certainly where your heart is.  But your heart can be in more than one place.  On earth, mine is in two places, with you and with Nica.

So I’m coming back to you soon! I’m coming back to be with my people and to make new memories.  But I’m coming back different.  I’m coming back knowing more about who I am after experiencing life in a new way and spending much focused time with Jesus.  I have a lot more to learn and I don’t want to get comfortable again, but I believe that for me, I function best with the support of my people, my community.  God can use me however He chooses, of course, but He created me as I am and He knew exactly what I needed.  He knew He needed to take me out of my “home” to experience some of the world, so I could be changed and come back to my “home” to share those experiences and that growth with my community.  I’m excited to be with you again!  I am excited to be with my people again!  I’m excited to share the future of my family and of Metanoia with you!  I’M COMING HOME!

Much love,


Who and What and Why

Our family has been through some change and lots of adventure over the last several years. Our current role is that of missionary family.  But we aren’t the “typical” missionary family you think of raising support, living in a third world country, preaching to the “natives.” Oh, we’ve done some of that.  We raised support to move to Nicaragua to work with Metanoia Missions International. We lived there for a year (June ’13-June ’14), and during that year we realized that our God-given gifts and skills were better utilized by the organization in the States where we can focus on the administrative and fund-raising aspects of our various ministries.  So we moved to Texas for a year, but that proved not to be the place where God wanted us long-term.  So, now we’re back home in PA again, picking up where we left off, with more life-experience and adventure under our collective belt.

One of our favorite spots in Nicaragua

Our family is uniquely designed.  I have been married to Dave for 14 years and am stepmom to two children who are now adults…woah!  I am mom to two more children, Luke and Sydney. I’m also a mom-in-law and soon-to-be Mimi! Life is crazy…crazy good!

Our growing family!

I have grown in ways that I never even knew I needed to grow in through the experiences of these past few years.  Many moments have been rough, challenging, and tantrum-inducing on occasion (me being the one throwing them). But I have learned so much about myself and some things about others and a lot about God and His love, mercy, and grace.  I want to share what I have learned to anyone who wants to listen, and if no one wants to listen, I at least want to record it so I can remember it with more clarity.  So here’s to my thoughts on life, for what they’re worth!